Had a talk with Steve today. He hold my hands and he apologise for keeping the problem away from me. He said that he knew how sensitive i am to guys who is younger than me who hangs around too close to him. That is the reason why he hasn’t be able to tell me yet. He wanna see me calm first, so he could be honest. The guy he was helping is Shafiq. He is 18. Syafiq was dumped by his boyfriend after they had sex. So he felt being used so badly that he started to have thoughts for suicide. Steve came in to help him out, to keep his mind of his ex.
As for me i guess i own Steve an apology for giving him a hard time. But i do what i had to do, cause I’m afraid of losing him. And as for him, you can see now. I undertstand the situation. He should trust me from the beginning. I’ve been through alot of shit in my life.. that is why i understand how Syafiq felt. Love you Sweets. =]
